Indigo lights along the verges mean  upgrades to the Planet’s codes

The indigo edging looked like a fine mist along the side of the road where the soil meets the concrete. It was (and still is) an amazing sight.

When I go to meet my Glastonbury friends there is often a buzz about Planetary upgrades and energetic codes.

Spring Upgrade 2018

At different times of the year, there are upgrades taking place to the energetic code of our planet. Just like a phone she gets upgraded to the latest operating system and we have been receiving a big upgrade recently.

Humans have evolved to live on this planet and so what affect Gaia will affect us too. 

With each upgrade we face a choice-point: Surrender to the upgrade and ascend in line with the rest of the planet, or, reject the upgrade and have a tussle with how uncomfortable it feels to be constantly lagging behind.

You can end up feeling unsettled

I only become aware of the upgrade once it has started to complete on some level. Unless I am told to be ready for what is coming, I get hit with the change just like everyone else. Sometimes I manage to put two and two together and I recognise the disquiet inside me is in fact to do with an planetary upgrade that is taking place but sometimes I don’t. 

We have just been through the start of an enormous planetary upgrade (Spring 2018) and I wasn’t aware it was coming. This one felt very ‘uncomfortable’ for me on really deep levels.  I was surprised at the emotional sewage that was coming to the surface.  Something was being triggered in me that I didn’t relate to or like very much at all. I  felt very out of balance.

During this upgrade I felt two emotions really strongly, in fact they became overwhelming at times. The first emotion was ‘jealousy’ and the second emotion was ‘loneliness’. I didn’t relate to having felt these emotions before, ouch, they really hurt!  If you asked me if I ever feel jealousy or loneliness I’d say ‘absolutely not!’. So, I was shocked by the intensity of how these feelings felt when I felt them.  I was shocked that I felt these feelings at all! 

I couldn’t give you a single reference in my life when I had felt either of these. I suppose that’s where the clue is. You can’t illuminate something if its in exile. Whatever was lurking in my shadows had come into the light during this enormous planetary upgrade.

Shadow work

Early behaviours and emotions are moulded and controlled by the family group we are born into. We soon learn to disassociate with behaviours and emotions that are disapproved of and to amplify behaviours and emotions that are approved of.  We do this to be accepted by our ‘tribe’, to fit in, to feel safe and secure in our world…to avoid tribal rejection.

At some point I learned to hide away jealousy or loneliness because my tribe did not accept something relating to them. They didn’t accept them so I learned not to accept them as well.  I hid these feelings away in the shadows in order to be accepted by my family. But the capacity to feel those feelings didn’t actually go away, they were just numbed out, obscured from view,…and I had done a really great job of it! And, as the planetary upgrades got underway this time round I became aware of jealousy and loneliness in all their rawness for the first time in my living memory. 

Unconditional love

Rather than investigating how I ended up with jealousy and loneliness in my grid, searching for a way to justify why they had suddenly turned up, I chose to focus on unconditional love instead.  I chose to accept how I was feeling and love myself through it.  Jealousy and loneliness  are aspects of me that I now also accept unconditionally. I feel them without getting into the drama of them though. I don’t need mastery over them either, as that’s entering back into the same cycle of control and approval that sent them into exile in the first place. 

I got to know jealousy.  I connected with the current event that triggered it – but I didn’t judge it or rebel against it.  I felt the pain of acknowledging I was capable of feeling jealous at all. I surrendered into it and loved myself.

I got to know loneliness.  I connected with the current event that triggered it – but I didn’t judge it or rebel against it.  I felt the pain of acknowledging I was capable of feeling loneliness at all. I surrendered into it and loved myself.

Loneliness brought the biggest shift in my awareness of myself. After a lifetime of what can only be described as ‘ferocious independence’ it was clear to me that it was loneliness that I found hardest to bear as I allowed myself to properly connect with it.  I had set my life up so I could thrive while being on my own and yet on a deep level I craved connection and companionship more than anything else. That’s a big spotlight, a huge shift will now take place in my life.

I chose unconditional love of all aspects of myself – you can’t only accept the bits that feel good. I chose to let jealousy be my teacher and to find ways to work with the feeling to create a better life for myself. I chose to let loneliness be my teacher too and to find ways to work with the feeling to create a better life for myself as well.

A personal upgrade

The day after I accepted these feelings into my life and embraced them for what they are I saw indigo coloured light edging the grass verges. It was the first time I had ever seen this.  The indigo edging looked like a fine mist along the side of the road where the soil meets the concrete. It was (and still is) an amazing sight.

Then I got it! An upgrade had been taking place on the planet. The indigo edging was a sign of the upgraded code being integrated into the planet.  I had been experiencing the upgrade too. Welcoming my emotions out of the shadows was part of the process of ascension.  I had been ascending with the planet and hadn’t realised it!  I had managed to take the new codes into my personal energy grid. I had integrated the upgrade and felt more content, more whole, more balanced.

During an upgrade you will feel physical symptoms of the ascension process. There will be  many personal insights, a broadening of your awareness. Clarity starts to emerge: Meditate frequently. Keep a journal and express your feelings into it. Be kind to yourself and to others and above all, love, love yourself unconditionally.